yes, i know it's friday. but this little girl's name is tuesday and she's dying of cancer. the doctors have sent her home and her parents believe they'll only have their little girl a few more days. and in their grief and sorrow, they are clinging to the Lord.
please. please. please. pray.
pray for tuesday. (click to see their blog)
today was my official due date.
and thank you, Lord, that my sweet baby decided to come 3 weeks earlier. i cannot imagine still being pregnant today. holy cow.
just to think that 3 weeks ago, i could only see the top of my belly when i looked down. there were no feet that could be seen. today though, here's what i see. so much better than a big ole' belly.
she is such a good baby. she loves to be in this sling, which gives me two hands to do other things. she's content to just sit in her swing or her bouncy seat as well. just what i wanted!
and, she looks nothing like karsyn did when she was a baby. i'll have to get out comparison photos, but here's a quick one of mykah today.
lovin' my babies. they both rock my world.
ok, so there is a huge difference in a new mom and a new mom with a toddler. the sleep deprivation is taken to a whole new level. you aren't able to sleep during the day when your baby sleeps like you did with the first one, which can make for headaches and really, really long days.
sweet baby #2 has been the perfect baby. until this week. and she's still good, but something is different. something is wrong almost. she's fussy. she isn't sleeping well. she's gassy. and she seems to be in pain immediately after she eats and when i change her diaper. a totally different baby than i had the first week of her life. so i'm in debates on what i should do about it. the doctor is going to tell me to wait it out, but i really think i should switch her formula. we'll see what the conclusion is.
back to sleep. there has been none.
i woke up after an hour of sleep this morning and didn't want to get the day started. i was a little grumpy, you could say. i've been doing so good with little sleep until today. when i turned my computer on, the Lord opened my eyes and got my day going. for the most part.
i have a daily Bible verse that opens up and this is what it said ...
Matthew 24:42 "Therefore, STAY AWAKE, for you do not know on what day your Lord is coming."
for whatever reason, this is how karsyn holds mykah. not sure the reasoning behind it. she asks me ... "mommy, i hold mykah a bit?" so cute. i'm so glad and extremely thankful that she has been such a wonderful big sister.
and it's only just begun.
it's been a long time. a long, long time. like, at least 6 months kind of long time. i almost forgot how much fun it is. see this girl ...
her absolute favorite thing to do is to play hide and seek. ok, remember i was pregnant? hide and seek and huge pregnant lady don't mix well. for the last 6 months (because i got huge right away), hide and seek just hasn't worked well. the only place i could truly hide was behind a door. it's the only thing that covered me and there's only so many doors. if i knelt down behind something, which usually didn't hide me either, i couldn't get up fast enough to run. if i did, i'd have to go sit down because i was out of breathe.
tonight was the night. my body feels great. although i haven't been released yet to workout or do any activity, we played hide and seek. and we played it good. karsyn was squeaking and squealing. i did get tired, but she kept me going.
still, i went for the door. it's too easy to hide behind. and i'm still out of shape.
i was so happy. she was so happy. i cannot believe how much i missed that.