do you ever just know that you have been a little too distant from God than you should be? it just feels so obvious and hits you all at once? that's been my life lately. and it shows. i try too hard to make others happy. to make friends. to gain attention. to keep my house spotless. instead of just living.
sometimes life can get so busy. almost too busy and i end up feeling like i'm in a tornado; picking up pieces of my life as i'm tossed and turned about. usually, while circling, i frantically attempt to organize those pieces as i fly by in hopes that everything just happens with ease.
this is all with only one child who isn't yet involved in every activity under the sun. usually when life gets like that and after i've tried to fix it all on my own, i call out to God. He's always right there, if i'd simply shield the wind to see. He's in the eye of that storm, where the peace is. sometimes i wish i could just stop and ride the winds that lead me to that peaceful place. it's about being quiet and still and talking to Him. for me though, that's been the last thing i think about. i tend to go through all of the emotions and reactions before i finally get there.
why is it that we try to fight those storms on our own when we know exactly where He's at the whole time? ecclesiastes 4:6 says "better is a hand full, with quietness, than two handfulls with labor and striving after wind."
i always know that God has it all planned out and is at the center of the storms. i need to learn to put my control, OCD-ness, perfectionism, and stubborness aside and ride the winds of that well-trodden path straight to Him every time.
peace.
No comments:
Post a Comment