[ one month ]

mykah reese.

i cannot believe that you have been in our lives for one whole month. it seems like just yesterday we found out about you. i constantly thought about how you would look and what you would be like. i worried about you making it into the world safely and being strong. i wondered if God had equipped me with all the tools that i needed to be a great mom to you and your sister. i prayed that you would have a love of God that would pour out of you onto others and that you would find His special purpose for your life.

we have spent the last month learning you. we have studied your face, fingers, and toes. we have breathed you in to memorize your sweet smell. we have listened carefully to every sound and cry to try and figure out what it is you are telling us. we have tried to protect you from karsyn and became proud at how well she adjusted to your presence.

i hope you know how much we love you. i hope that you feel safe when you are home. i hope that we can show you how to love others and be your own person. i hope that we can show you what it means to have a love for God that defines who you are so you don't have to go searching. i hope that we can give you a security that allows you to be independent and adventurous later in life. i hope that you are strong enough to stand up for what you believe in and not be swayed. i hope that you take the best parts of each of us. i hope that we are everything that you need us to be.

i promise that we will be there to cheer on your every milestone. i promise that we will make you laugh. i promise that when you get your heart broken we will feel it too and love you through it. i promise that we will always be your home.

it is only the beginning, sweet baby, and we are walking this road together. all four of us.  i can't wait to see what is in store for your life and ours together.

xoxo

mommy