here's the timeline.
sunday, december 4th - two positive pregnancy tests. we were so excited! a little confused because of the timeline of the last few months activities (how awkward to explain on here. keeping it real.)
monday, december 5th - called my doctor. went to hospital to have labs done to confirm pregnancy. my hcg level was 1098.
wednesday, december 7th - went back to hospital for more labs. hcg level was up to 1498, which is a good sign. they increased. the nurse says they are kind of low.
saturday, december 10th - we went to my parents house for the weekend and told the whole family the exciting news.
monday, december 12th (today) - i already had an appointment scheduled with my doctor. he just went into practice on his own, so this would normally be a "new ob" appointment, but since i'm pregnant and, most likely, 7 weeks along, it's a well-check appointment for the baby. i was nervous the entire time. i had a bad feeling and had already prepared myself to hear the words "you've miscarried." and "again" would soon follow in my head. i didn't hear those words, but worse, in a way. "it's a tubal pregnancy."
i was in shock and confused. i had heard of a tubal pregnancy before, but had no clue what was happening to my body. i have to go to the hospital tomorrow for methotrexate shots to end the pregnancy and to clean everything out.
i am sad for sure. i keep saying that i had already prepared myself for the worst. the worst is what i got. and now i have to move on. i'm praying the shots work fine and that we can move on from here. these last 3 months have been horrible and i just want to move past it all. it's so hard to imagine that i had 2 pretty healthy pregnancies, deliveries, and babies without any problems. and now to have 2 that have failed is hard for me to understand. but we move on from here.
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