we have learned so much about this girl. as she grows, we grow as parents. yep, she's that child. she's the one that keeps us on our toes. she's rowdy. she's wild & crazy. she's out of control. she's hyper. she's very energetic (when she wants to be). she likes to fight. she thinks she's a ninja. she is absolutely hysterical.
just recently she has REALLY come out of her shell. a shell that was already pretty tiny. a shell that she only hid under for a mere minute before she would become highly social. now, she doesn't hide. she shows her colors from the minute she walks in the door.
but through it all, she still has a very tender side. she'd be lost without her mama. she cries when i'm not there. she has "rough days" at church now. she talks constantly about being afraid that mama is going to die. she doesn't want us to grow old. she never wants to leave this house. she never wants to leave me. all of that makes me sad. of course i don't want to die. and i don't want her to leave me. but i also know that all of that is part of life. i'd love more than anything for all of my children to stay little. if i could push a button to turn back time, i'd do it in a heartbeat.
and i also know that God has put each of us here for a reason. i know that we'll all grow old. we'll all change. and, although i will have to remind her of her undying love for me when she's a teenager and hates my guts, i will do continue to do my job to guide her through life. to find her purpose. and to grow her knowing about the God who loves her. the God who will never ever leave her. because i want her to cling to Him always.
whenever i want to ring her little neck for punching her sister again. or for writing all over the dining room chairs with permanent marker. or for sneaking her grapes into the trashcan again instead of eating them. i remind myself of this innocent smile. her naive sense of life. her absolute sweetness that shines through the craziness.
i can't believe how much i love her.
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