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here's my chalkboard today.  it's kinda my new motto.  the past few weeks have just been ugly.  in a matter of 3 weeks, i found out i was pregnant, had a miscarriage, and lost 2 relatives and, as a result, have just felt ugly.  the feeling is almost indescribable and "i'm fine" has rolled off my tongue quicker and more often than ever before.  you want people to see you happy.  to see that you really are fine, but inside you just feel ugly.  it's just been a rough season in my life and i'm more than ready to move on and see where God leads me.  so ... in comes the new motto... 

be beautiful.  inside and out.  i'm focusing on it for myself.  in order for others to see me as beautiful, i have to see myself as beautiful.  it's definitely not always easy.  and it's definitely a mindset that requires discipline, devotion to God, and lots of prayer.  today, i started my day off with a sweet friend.  i know for a fact that i struggle with things simply because i spend my days in my house with 5 children.  i absolutely love my job, but to be inside 5 days a week with 2 year olds can be a little hard on one's soul.  no matter who you are.  so starting my day with an adult friend, exercising, was absolutely wonderful.  it makes me feel so much better inside and out!  i've been taking care of my spiritual with daily scripture readings and prayer and today i started with my body. 

it feels good and is exactly what i needed today!  be beautiful.  it makes me smile when i read it.  which is the perfect start to my mission.